Wednesday, July 22, 2015

It's better be!

 I have always been asking myself. Why like this and why like that? Why the thing I wanted to happen does not happen like I planned? Why? Wae?
 Why I have to do this when I feel bad about it? Why?
 Why I have to make it when I think it's not good for me? Why?
 WHY I HAVE TO GO THROUGH ALL OF THIS? WHY?

Those questions keep playing in my mind and I can't stop it unless I sleep. But,sometimes it gotten into my dreams too.

 Oh Allah? Why I have to do this when I'm not ready,when I can't take it? Oh Allah...please...

 But,I realized that sometimes,the thing I hate turns to a very good thing for me...Don't you?
 When your mom and dad forced you to solat? When they forced you to puasa? When they forced you to go to school? When the teachers mad at you because you didn't do your homework?

 Stop for a while and think about it. Why they did that? Why Allah make it the way like that?
 Why Allah put you in a family that have so many peraturan itu dan ini?

 I can't deny, I really don't want to go back to asrama . REALLY DON'T WANT. Cause it hurts me so much. I will be very missing my family and I can't stop thinking about them at night. I cried. Many times.

 But,I tell myself. "Do you know how much mom and dad paid for your yuran asrama? Do you know how much mom sacrifice their time to visit you and take and send you back? How much they used their money for you to buy your things and goods? Don't you know how much energy they have to use? Don't you know?"

 They put so many hopes on me. That's why they are willing to do anything or everything as long as I can succeed in my life.

 Then,I knew. I know they love me more than anything. They love me....

 That's why. Allah knows what is He doing. You know nothing. Not even a single thing. Believe in Him. Have Faith. In Sha Allah,He will helps you through this painful and tiring journey.



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